Depression

You may have noticed that, for the past month or so, I haven’t written anything at all. My last post said I was taking a few days to recover from illness, and that was true. But after I recovered, I still didn’t write anything new, and there is a reason for that. This is my explanation and apology.

Depression is a meddlesome thing. I am fully aware that I am depressed, and I want to work past it, but I can never summon the energy to do so. It’s easier to do nothing than it is to do something. And although my head says that I can beat these feelings, my heart is apathetic at best.

That’s another thing about depression. I don’t necessarily feel sad. Mostly I just feel empty. I’m not upset about things going wrong in my life; rather, I care so little about them that it hurts and baffles me. When I do feel emotion, it’s usually just an outburst of anger or hatred. There’s no creative or positive spin I can put on what little emotion I can drag up.

Don’t get me wrong, though. I do still have fun, and I do have moments of happiness. The problem is that they are only moments. As soon as whatever made me happy is over, the feeling recedes, and emptiness takes its place once again.

So how do I fight my depression? Well, this is how. Writing for this site was how I was intending to combat the apathy. However, once I had an excuse to stop writing in the illness, it was all too easy to start saying, “I’ll write tomorrow.” Tomorrow never came, and so I let the site slip into stagnation within a month of starting it.

No more. I’m making the necessary changes in my personal life to raise my spirits and crawl out of this emotional slump I’ve been trapped in for far too long, and that means I’m going to post more. I’m going to write everyday, and post as frequently as I can, even if it’s just something random to occupy my mind.

So, if you’re reading this, thank you for your time and your support. I don’t mean to be such a downer, and I’m definitely not looking for pity. Rather, I’m promising you that I’m only going to get better from here on out, regardless of whatever curves life may throw at me. Once again, thank you, and I look forward to writing to you and for you in the future.

No Releases for a Few Days

So, this is a short, not-a-real-post post. I just wanted to say that it’ll be a few days before I post anything new since I’m currently dealing with a medical issue, and all my time is spent either at work or rolling around on my bed in suffering and agony. I’m sorry, but I just don’t have the energy to write anything right now. Thanks for the understanding!

Main Monthly Update: What Am I Doing?

What am I doing with this blog? Well, I’m glad you asked, me. I started this blog so I could speak about things that interest me, and have a medium with which to share my ideas and viewpoints with others. I chose to do a blog rather than continuing my previous attempts at a YouTube channel for three reasons: first, while I have no problem portraying a character on camera or for an audience, being myself was scary, and so I was an awkward presence on camera. Second, I didn’t like filming it as, due to my limited budget, I wasn’t exactly able to do anything interesting with a visual medium. Finally, and most importantly, I found I preferred the writing of the review to the filming and editing process of the video.

Why didn’t you already know you liked writing, Wombat? First of all, stop talking to yourself, it’s weird. Anyway, I did know I liked writing. I’ve been writing since middle school, when I attempted my horribly awful first attempt at a novel called¬†Attack of the Pens, in which the regular household items would be sentient and wish to kill their owners. Yes, it was as bad as it sounds. In the past year or so, though, I’ve been busy trying to piece together my life. I got a job, moved out on my own, bought a lot of things I had always wanted to but never could on my parents’ dime, and dealing with a lot of issues in my life that cropped up as a result of all that. So I wasn’t really writing, and part of me kind of forgot how much happiness I get from it.

What are you going to be writing about?¬†Seek help, me who keeps asking these questions. I look in the mirror and I’m worried. I intend this blog to primarily be for video game and music reviews. The reason I’ll be doing both is because, if I just do video game reviews, I won’t be able to post as often as I would like to (even now, I’m not far enough into any game to write a review on it). Music is also a bigger passion for me than video games, being a musician myself, and I’d like to talk about why I listen to what I listen. Other than those, I do have plans for different, more creative forms of writing in the future, but I’d like to cement myself as at least a half-decent reviewer before I attempt to do so.

Why haven’t you written a music review yet, then? I’ve already called you a doctor, just relax, you’ll get help soon. I haven’t written one yet because I was planning to start with year-end top tens as a lead in to the music reviews. The problem is… I didn’t consider how much work they actually throw on you. I quit halfway through the research phase. So I’ll write one when I find a song about which I actually have opinions. So, basically, I’ll listen to the radio a bit today instead of my CD’s and write one soon.

So, anyway, that’s the reason why this blog exists and what I intend to do with it in the near future. If you have any questions, leave a comment and I’ll answer it as soon as I can, or you can find @DogAndWombat on Twitter and I’ll probably answer you quicker. Thanks for reading, friends!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Oh no, I made light of a serious problem in this blog post! Now I’ll never get any readers….